I've diagonsed myself with pre empty nest syndrome.
Josh will go to college soon. But he's already left us in many ways. His days, his schedule, his ideas are all his own and we don't know if he'll be here most days are not. When he is here and comes out of his room we're soooo happy to see him. And sometimes he's happy to see us.
Yesterday we all went out to lunch, to Neil's fave Chinese restaurant in Exeter and then to pick blueberries at Blueberry Bay Farm in Stratham. Isaac and I were the only ones really excited about the outing. I think Neil came because he thought he should and he made Josh come because, damned if he was going to do family time without his boy (that one who has already almost left us).
Once we got Josh out of bed and showered and out the door and into the car and then finally awake enough to talk to us, he just wanted to talk NH Senate elections and libertarian politics. Yep. He's that much fun.
There was a point where Isaac asked me just why we'd invited them along because at the blueberry farm we were the only ones with buckets. Here's Josh's blueberry pose.
I think we've become a divided family: Neil + Josh and Isaac + me. The harder I try to change this the more ridiculous the endeavor seems. And so that's how it is right now.
The blueberries are yummy.